...and going. I actually had a nice time on my 1st V-Day alone. Of course I wasn't acutally alone. The kids planned a 'surprise' party, which they had been talking about since Tuesday! The night before we made chocolates and chocolate covered pretzels and the kids decorated the kitchen. M2 and S made breakfast with Ex...eggs, bacon and toast. After breakfast, they each gave us one chocolate and then sang "You are my sunshine". Then they pulled out the construction paper and crayons and everyone drew flowers. Then we played Disney trivial pursuit. I even got a 2 hour nap in, which was a highlight of the day! Around dinner time, we went to the bowling alley and bowled A LOT!!! It was fantastic and I bowled a 117, which is one of my highest scores in a while! Overall, it was a pleasant day.
M1 got her period this week. I am so excited for her and she was not really phased by it! Which made me even happier! The doctor said that once a girl starts menstruating that she won't grow much more. This really upset me. M1 said that she was not happy about it either, but then didn't say much else. For me, it was weird, but I had lingering feelings about it. For so long, part of her identity (or rather my identity of her) has been tied up her being so tall and beautiful. The idea that she may be 5'5" was sad. I've always expected that she would be about 6'. So I don't really know what to make of that, but I'm sitting with it and trying to fiugre it out.
I made an appointment (in my head) to go to the temp agency and try to start looking for a job. This makes me hyperventilate with fear! Not the job part, and not really the interview part...more the taking the first step. Once I start working it will be the beginning of the countdown for me to move out. And that is terrifing.
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